30.

cutest crocheted coverup here!

I turned 30 on the 14th. This is weird since I am definitely no older than 17, but that is neither here nor there.

I view birthdays as my personal New Year’s Day. Starting fresh, starting over where needed, adding and taking away. I love it.

I’ve spent a LOT of time this month reflecting. What do I like about my life? Where does it feel good? More of those things. I’ve learned that sometimes, there are seasons where I can’t do much about the things I don’t like, or the things that make me feel not so good. And while I may not be able to take away the bad feelings that come from things that are out of my control, I can add good feelings and good things. There’s only so much space, you know? So I do my best to fill it up with good, happy, sunshine. 

Humans are ever-evolving. The things I loved last year, I may not this year. It doesn’t mean they’re bad things! I go through my clothes, hobbies, how I spend my time, with who I spend my time. 

I think I used to view editing my life as a bad thing, now I view it as something that brings so much freedom. It reminds me that I am in charge of my life. 

So as I step into a new decade of life, I’m editing as I go. I’m freaking steeping myself in gratitude. We are done with the toxic positivity and hustle harder phases, but there are bits and pieces I can take with me as I leave those behind. Constantly looking for things to be grateful for is one of them. I’m slowing down. Coffee is meant to be enjoyed and not chugged. Sunsets are meant to be watched, not peeked at through the window. I’m fully believing that everything that’s supposed to happen for me, will. 

These things make stepping into a new year of life feel so fresh and exciting for me. 

I wanted to share because just like I choose to have New Years on my birthday, you can do this whenever you want. So if you feel blah and stuck and need a fresh start, you don’t have to have a reason to decide to do it. You ARE the reason. 

I love you, I love me, I love this stupidly hard life because it’s the only one we get.