Letters to Jack: 4 Months.

Jack, 

Today is a big deal for me. It marks one year since I found out you were going to be making your way into the world. We can easily call this the most life-changing year for me. 

When I found out about you (after spending $98 dollars on pregnancy tests just to be sure), I was so nervous and scared…I was worried that I wasn’t ready, that I wouldn’t know how to take care of you. I didn’t know how you would fit into the life we had planned. 

Spoiler alert: You fit perfectly. 

A year ago, I woke up and drank coffee and watched Netflix, with zero ideas about how life was changing. Today, I woke up and fed you and snuggled you back to sleep. We’re on vacation-see, all of my worries about fun things in life being over were just stupid-and we’ll spend the day shopping and playing in the sun and swinging and admiring your sweet little baby giggles that you’ve been giving out more and more frequently. 

But for now, you’re snuggled in next to me, wearing footie pajamas that have dinosaurs on your feet…the feet that you will spend all day trying to put in your mouth. You’re sleeping, so peacefully, and you still smell like lavender from your nighttime lotion. Here I am, 365 days later, drinking my coffee in bed again, and here you are, much different than you were a year ago, but still the same little love. 

You have changed every single aspect of my life. So I guess I just wanted to say thank you for that. 

Happy one year of hanging out together, little man. You are everything I never knew I wanted, and I will love you for all of my forever.

xo.